Deep in my heart, i hope that this is just a bad dream for me. i hope everything gonna be okay. Even, it will take time, i guess its worth-waiting for. Or... maybe not? haih i know, i am hoping too much for myself.. i hope that the reality is not as bad as those dreams. Yet, i let myself being hurt over and over again, just to have what I'd wish for. I'm torn between two things.. Whether i should stay and keep moving with the flow? or i should put this to an end? hmmm..
for these time being, i guess i'll choose the first one. InsyaAllah, why should i mess my mind with all this? There's still a long journey to go through. I just need to concentrate on my other parts of life, make myself busy. and i'm gonna be OKAY (y)